Voices for Recovery
I am a person in long-term recovery, which for me means that I haven’t used substances for more than eight years. Recovery has changed my life.
I was introduced to drugs in high school and was expelled from schools more than once. I eventually graduated from college, married, and got a job at a large managed care organization as a director in health care operations. Although I kept my addiction pretty much hidden during this time, I struggled to maintain relationships. When they fell apart, I always believed it was the other person’s fault.
When I got divorced in 1999, I didn’t realize that I was incapable of having any type of relationship. At that point, my addiction began to take off. I stopped going to work, and when I could no longer feed my addiction, I decided I would take my life. When I tried, I ended up calling an ambulance – and have never felt so relieved. I was finally able to say I needed help. I went to treatment and soon thereafter I relapsed. About one year later, through the help of a 12-step program, my recovery began to take hold.
I held several jobs early in my recovery, including a house manager at a treatment facility and at a recovery house, and an outreach worker. I wanted to contribute and share the gifts that I had received. In 2011, I became involved with my partner who was a former college classmate. It took my whole life to get to the relationship that I am in now. I am a real partner in the most wonderful, giving relationship I could ever dream of. I work, vote, pay taxes, and I am involved in my community. Recovery is a gift that I get to open again and again, every day. I am living proof that recovery is possible.